And so the countdown begins...

With the months turning into weeks and the weeks to soon transform mysteriously into days, I feel like a man trying to hold about 2007 too many things in his arms while sprinting feverishly toward some fuzzy, half-lit goal that may not even be worth reaching in the first place. I'm still uncertain about where I will live, where I will work, or who I will live with. All I really know for certain is that I feel really lost and I'm hoping that the few weeks I have off before moving to seminary will be a revealing time for me. I find it ironic that I am going to seminary because this particular place of learning is suppose to train you to tell others the Truth, yet I find it so hard these days to even remember what the Truth is. Of course I can spout out theological know-how when asked, but to really have it transforming the core of who I am on a daily basis--I've got a long way to go before I can stand before a group of people who are counting on me to speak Truth and teach with authority and sincerity.
ughh.....