Why I Can't Give Up

In life, God places many challenges in our lives to develop our moral character and to draw faith from our spiritual veins. Abram faced such a trial in Gen. 22 when God called him to sacrifice his own son, Isaac. Abram did not back down from this test, but remained faithful.
Personally, I have crumbled under many much smaller testings. I have given up on so many important areas of my life. And now I face one of the hardest crossroads I will ever face. The decisions I make in the next few weeks and months will have severe reverberations into the remainder of my life. I feel a rising inability to give up on those I care for the most but find unable to keep close to my heart. Pride and insecurity seep out of my flesh and cause havoc without relent. I am incredibly full of sin to the point that I want to vomit. It causes doubt to rise in myself and others. Will I stand the test this time? Will I remain faithful? O God that this could be so! Deliver me from my inadequacy!

"Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!" Romans 7:24-5